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Your Last Day
What would you do differently if you knew it was your last day on Earth? Would you visit your family and friends and tell them that it would be okay? Would you hold your children tightly and love harder than you have before? Would you smile at a stranger while walking through a store? Our…
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Incomplete
My family is incomplete. We lock hands, cuddle up, and pose for pictures often as a family of 4, but we are a family of 5. There is one person missing. There is one person who we will always long for. There is one person who couldn’t stay leaving us with a forever beautifully broken…
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The Longed For Child
On October 25, 2017, the day that I lost my daughter Millie, my life was forever changed. I developed this indescribable grief that will always live within me. I wake up each day without a child, without a life that I l dearly love, without a part of my heart. She is always on my…
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There Should Be
“Happy Birthday Jesus, Happy Birthday Jesus, We love you, We love you.” sings my son, River, filled with joy. This year, he loves everything Christmas and understands that Jesus is the reason for the season. Watching him excitedly ask every morning if it’s Christmas time and seeing his face light up when we pass Christmas…
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The day I held an angel
It was Friday, October 27, 2017 at 1:15 P.M. when my contractions became intense and labor was getting hard. Our room was filled with our closet family members as we awaited the arrival of our second born, Millie Raelynn. This waiting was different. This waiting was filled with shattered hearts and wounded souls as we…
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The Day Your Heart Stopped Beating
One year ago today, I laid on the hospital bed as the MFM ultrasound tech worked to find my daughter’s heartbeat. I nervously asked, “is it still in the 130’s?” She replied, “When was it in the 130’s honey?” “Last night, I said. And her kicks were very strong.” In walked our amazing MFM doctor…
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I am 1 in 4
1 in 4 women. A statistic that isn’t talked about since it regards a taboo subject that others feel awkward to discuss. What many people who haven’t been through a loss do not realize is that most of us do want to talk about our losses. I know you might feel scared and be hesitant…
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Living Every Single Day
Each day I wake up and I live my life without one of my children. Being a bereaved parent is hard. I live two lives. One where I pretend everything is fine and dandy and another where my heart is constantly aching and longing for my child that I have lost. I never would have…
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Blessed is she who believed
When you lose a child, no one tells you how hard the days will be. You wake up each day with a grateful heart and try to find the beauty in each day, because there is good in each day and we should strive to find it. When you approach the days in the year…
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Celebrating Life
From the moment you read that positive pregnancy test, you begin to envision your new life. You go through your whole pregnancy making all these plans, but you never plan for the loss. Going through a loss is indescribable. I’ll never be the same again after losing Millie, but I have learned so much about…